Perspectives

This week has been full of life.  I decided today that journaling is critical.  I have lots of reasons, but the most important one is for record for myself, for my children and for records.  I am going to be doing more journaling, like thoughts, feelings, that sort of stuff, that is appropriate, here and I am setting a goal for myself to do it weekly, if not more often.  I am feeling like rambling, so if it sounds like it, it is.  I have been thinking about my goals, and how at the new year for last year, not only was I so glad 2009 was done and in the books, but I was feeling overwhelmed at the prospect of setting some new goals for 2010.  So, now that we're in May, I have a few goals, and their reason for coming to be goals.

First, I am going to run a 1/2 marathon.  I didn't think I could ever do this. I have genetically weak knees.  I didn't think I had time.  After I ran Pat's run, I realized I can do it.  I trained for that on the treadmill, and I just ran 6 miles yesterday and felt great!  I was still hopping and going strong when I got home ( I was outside).  I can do it, because I've been babystepping my distance and I feel strong in my mind which is more than half the battle or training.  So, who knows, maybe I'll actually go for a full marathon, but I am feeling confident about setting the goal for the1/2 and excited about the strength and energy I am feeling in my body as a result of my training.

I am going to spend more time with each of my kids individually.  Yesterday I listened to Kennedy singing twinkle twinkle little star to a little baby in the sweetest way!  She said every word and even did hand actions. Audrey is saying her "R" sounds better, and that shows she's growing up.  Emma's going to be a 2nd grader. Where has the time gone?  Another reason for this is because I have had an increased value of family in perspective or relationship to daily demands of family.  My to-do list will really never go away, and I will be sad when the kiddo maintenance items on that list fade, but I'll be even more sad if I let my kids fade and grow while I worry about the silly to-do list.  I have a wonderful family heritage to pass on to my children and I need to get on that.  I am so thankful for my knowledge and belief in eternal families.  I know that the relationships we form here on earth can and will be maintained beyond this life.

I am going to date my sweetheart Tim more often.  He is the best thing in my life.  The best.  He is my best friend, my confidant, my sense of humor, my personal chef (dang good one too!) and my strength.  I appreciate him so much and I aim to be better at showing my appreciation for him better.

I have had some real struggles in the past year and I wouldn't trade them for anything.  I knew life would be better or more rewarding on the other side of the "dark tunnel" I have been through.  I am so thankful for Tim for his strength through it all.  I know there are still challenges ahead, but I can handle them better now because I feel I have the tools to get through it.

I am so thankful for the light I have in my life.  Jesus Christ is Real.  He is my best cheerleader, and my strength and my coach.  He wants us to be happy but we have to turn to Him.  It is amazing the peace that comes during turmoil when we allow Christ to carry our burden.  I don't share my testimony often enough, and that is the last goal of this list.  To do that.  To bear my witness of Jesus Christ as my Savior, Redeemer, and Friend.

Thanks for reading.