Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Where are we?

That is a GREAT question!  When I have the answer, I'll let you know.  We are a busy family.  I don't know how we got to this point.  I guess it's not a point, rather it's a phase of our family. I'm so blessed to be working 5 days a week right now.  It's a kicker on the body, but at least the finances are not as scary.  Emma is out of school and just turned 8. Her baptism is scheduled for July 9th and we are so happy for her.  Audrey and Kennedy are just so much fun at ages 5 and 3.  They all keep us busy, more Tim at home with all of them while he's working on graduate school/employment/cars/being amazing.  I'm running a little bit still, planning for a half marathon again in November, but the hardest thing for me is the time away from my family when I go training.  I have terrible "working mom" guilt.  I'm sure that it's just in my head and I should just forget it, but that's easier said than done.  Until then, I try to spend as much quality time with Tim and the girls.  My life feels like a bullet point list these days.  Most of it stuff I feel like I need, but don't want to afford (example:  new running shoes and possibly a visit to the chiropractor because of an injury caused by my 350 miles old shoes...etc! both of which will cost $hundreds$) But, it is all important, so trying to decide what is not as important is really difficult for me.

 My biggest challenge lately is the time vaccuum of digital toys...ie music/mp3photos.  I would love to be able to listen to the latest and greatest music and I love to listen to the Ensign Magazine on my phone, and share amazing pictures of my girls and family, but I am seriously BACKWARD when it comes to that kind of technology.  I don't know if it's because I am not into buying the latest greatest mp3 or phones to do it (because I am a Frugal Franny) or what, but I end up spending time I don't have (which at this point is more valuable than the money).  Maybe I just need validation that it really does take a lot of time to do that junk, but I can't see how it is worthwhile to waste that much time.  I never thought I'd say this but I wish I had my old cassette walkman and my mix tape recorded form the radio!!  I'd rather believe I'm just so technologically declined it doesn't work for me, because it's me. And that's all the time and patience I have to talk about it.