~ Harper Family ~

This has been a .... week.  You name it. I've been feeling it.  Mostly I decided I need to put in writing all the amazing blessings in my life.  Number one is the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  If I didn't have that compass, then this would be so much worse.  My next in line is my sweetheart Tim. He has rocked this week. He's supported me as well as turned in all of his school asignments on top of preparing the house for cleaners, carpet cleaners, landscapers and moving out 3 truckloads of our stuff to "stage" the house for potential buyers.  To say the least, he's exhausted.  I am so thankful for his support and enthusiasm for the future.  I've come to the realization that wondering what I could have done differently or if there is anything we could do to save the house so we don't have to move is fruitless.  We are at a point in our lives we need to move on.  So much of  life is comparing ourselves to others or waiting for others to go first.  I'm one of the worst at that.  I know I need to change that.  This is a great opportunity for us to really let go and put our faith into action.  I have so many things running through my head, and I am getting better at filtering out the "poor me"stuff and lingering on the hopeful stuff, like a poster I had in my room for a long time of Christ with the words, " I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it" and "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger" and "We are not human beings having a spiritual experience, but spirit beings having a human experience."  All of these things are in my head, and I'm so grateful for the support of the Spirit and my family.  All this hopefulness doesn't make the pain and the grief any less evident, but it does mend the sting and heals my heart and grants me hope for our future. 
Audrey put it best yesterday, she said, "C'mon mom, Let's get goin'!!" as she's swinging her arm like she's ready to go conquer the world.  She was talking about leaving Sacrament meeting and going to primary, but still, she makes me smile with her positivity.  No looking back, only bright futures.